Monday, June 30, 2003
[`enjoying`] i'm held by your love

baby nemo!!


juz finished spending QT.great.now feel like juz go to sLp and hackcare everything else...but cannot larr.have to be salt and light...so muz study for test! -eyes half close- have my F&N stuff to complete...-sigh- and i'm so worried abt my PE which is on wed...cuz gonna take height and weight...-double sigh- i'm gonna die soon...-breathes-

*baby nemo
dun be sad over ur results okays?juz work harder for e nx common test and place ur trust in God :) ask Him for wisdom and knowledge too :) rem.? He is a God of everything.and dear,work out a new study method yeahx? -hugs-

-*pwacks*-

``memories at 11:14 pm


[`enjoying`] to the ends of the earth

give me strength.


hmms,came home 1hr ago?haha.seed was fun today! played chop chilli chop in e beginning and we really enjoyed.it's was hilarious when it was at e brothers side.jun huang was being voted to start off and eeLee was telling him to think of wacky actions.and somehow it got to walmond.and he did this action which really made everyone burst into laughters. hahah.and somehow,when seafood start e actions,it was stopped at zixin cuz she got e first action wrong.haha.teaching was long.haha.had 28 points.learnt a lot too :)

after sch immediatly rushed down to bishan to meet paLx for haircut.and guess what? i saw her boarding e train at amk station.haha.coincidence.so we went and my haircut took 45mins while her's is abt 30mins? hmms...after that we took cab down to rix's hse cuz she was late.haha.sorry paLx.didn't know e haircut would be that long.when reached rix hse,seafood was saying that my hair looks like ray!! argh.act. i think so too when i was in e cab. -sigh- what can i do now?laugh all u one...-curls my lip- act. i started to regret when e person had cut my left side.i was like "-sigh- i'm gonna look like boy.real soon." was really praying hard that my parents won't start questioning me when i reach home...cuz it was rather late for a student.so i switched e topic to my hair.and guess what? they was like "nice haircut"...i went O_O cuz my dad has always been objecting me to cut boy's style.and it's not that i want to cut boy's style.and he was e one that commented it suits me --;; parents are weird at times ain't they? or i shld say that God bless me!! heez...

wells,juz gotto mug into my F&N real soon.but before that let me go get my uniform back from bella! heez... spend QT first!! -grins-

-F&N...-

``memories at 9:13 pm


[`enjoying`] mr lau's voice

wierd dream i have.


hmms,now having social studies.haha.first day of sch and can go to comp. lab already.heez.timetable changed and i brought my bio and physics textbook to sch when there's no lesson on either sub. today! -grr- so heavy...nvm.leave it in e class cardboard later.hahah.woke up 20mins after my alarm rang.haha.and i act. can get ready within 20mins and leave e hse.nv miss bus or train.heez...God is blessing me :) mrs tan, my principal read to us abt Moses and told us to be bold and courageous. ms tan said that later there will be a change in class seating position...-wonders- where will i be sitting.hahah.and praise God that i nv slp during maths lesson! heez...and i paid attention during maths lesson *cLaPz for myself* hahah...hmms, looking forward to cut hair later and also cg404 meeting.hmms,think i've to sLp late tonight,have lots of stuff to complete.God really bless me with mr lau giving us 1 week more to complete his assignment.now everyone is quite lerthagic.probably is becuz today is e first day of sch.realised that i've to complete a few things tonight:
-finish F&N workbook
-edit e coursework
-study for tmr's test!
*faints* hanis is sms-ing...e keypad is so loud!! -looks at her- hahah. okays...better pay attention...*winks*

-God bless me...-

``memories at 9:59 am


[`enjoying`] keep falling in love

in e midst of all this,i juz want to hold on to You.


hmms,why am i still here when i'm supposed to be on my bed?hahah.sch starting 7hrs later.hahah.means i can't get my 8hr sLp! hahah.alright larr.gonna train myself to sLp late already...to do meaningful stuff larr.not staying late to chat larr.haha.was spending QT juz now.worship Him before i read His word...sang "i'm held by Your love"... and God brought me back to how i come,how i've go through every circumstances together with Him and how He had healed me when i'm hurt or in pain.argh.how can i juz leave Him?and He really spoke to me.to obey e commands that is given("Love ur Lord with all ur heart and with all ur soul and with all ur mind." and to "Love ur neighbour as urself."),in everything i do,work together with justice,mercy and faithfulness,stand firm in every circumstances and always rem. my first love with Him,to serve Him and worship Him for who He is!.

+i'm held by Your love
i'm held by Your strength
on Yourshoulders You bore me
by Your faith i stand

cherished by You Lord
treasured in Your sight
so close to Your heart
held firm in Your hand

so awesome is Your love
so mighty is Your hand
on eagles wing You carried me
Your grace shall be my strength

so perfect is Your love
You sacrifice Your Son
amazing love reach out to me
with joy to You i come+


God,
of all e things i'd gone through or in e midst of going through,
i pray that i can stand firm in You,
to really let You lead me by Your hand.

let my first love with You be always in my mind,
that it will always keep me strong and firm.

God,
i juz want to hold on to You,
even if everyone leaves You,
i will still hold on to You

cuz God,
i juz love You that much.

``memories at 1:02 am

Sunday, June 29, 2003
[`enjoying`] everyday

let me live out Your image every single day.




hmms,went out e whole day with my family.really enjoyed :) went to this supermarket which is at little india there and bought lots of stuff.haha.hmms,i LIKE doing groccery.haha.i like e speed that my bro in-law drives.it's fast and nice.haha.was teaching babygirLx how trees,flats and skies looks like.hahah.and she really enjoyed learning! ^____^ she is really a little cheerful girLx that cheers me up with her cute little actions.after that we went to paragon.was hopping to go to cineleisure...but nv.quite restricted larr.hahah.but i really enjoyed my day with my family.was telling them during lunch that we shld do this once a mth.so that i can also travel in e car.hahah.was quite tired when on e way home.so when reached home,packed e things that i'd bought and i slept.babygirLx was also sleeping.hahah.and she woke up first and started crying cuz she can't find her mummy which is my sis --;; -ssccrreamx- think my hp bill gonna *bOmb* this mth again.act. quite thrifty already but these few days sms like nobody's business.and my outgoing call is rather high. also not sure why -sigh- was talking to penguinnie juz now abt guitar lesson which is on this fri at piggyx hse.and both of us was like counting how many more lessons we're gonna have...hmms,think it's gonna be very fast that we'd to stop guitar lesson.hahah.yeahx! tmr going to cut hair together with paLx before cg404 meeting.haha.meeting her 2.15pm at bishan mrt station.pray that we won't be late for e meeting...heez.oohs.gonna bring my baobei guitar home tmr!! heez...nemo!! if u're reading this now...i'm gonna collect my guitar tmr before cg404 meeting!! xD so tonight use all u want...hahaha.oohs.saw nemo,christabel and her mum at paragon.didn't see them act. but they called me.hahaha.so nemo went to paragon to find papa ar?(hahaha...only nemo and papa knows what's going on xD) oohs...sch shoe not dry yet,haven't iron uniform and haven't pack bag yet.yeahx! haha...using char's bag cuz it is still at my hse...haven't do my exercise yet too...-sigh- think i better stop crapping and get on with my stuff.else i think i'll *pengz* soon...think i've to learn to adapt to sLp late.so that i can accomplish ALL e things i've to do every nitex.and of cuz...learn to draw strength from Him :)

-get on with my life...-

``memories at 9:34 pm


[`enjoying`] your love is beautiful

this is e me,filled with happiness.




+You tell me you're in love with me
like you can't take your pretty eyes away from me
it's not that I don't wanna stay
but every time you come too close I move away

I wanna believe in everything that you say
'cause it sounds so good
but if you really want me, move slow
there's things about me you just have to know

sometimes I run
sometimes I hide
sometimes I'm scared of you
but all I really want is to hold you tight
treat you right, be with you day and night
baby all I need is time

I don't wanna be so shy
every time that I'm alone I wonder why
hope that you will wait for me
you'll see that you're the only one for me

I wanna believe in everything that you say
'cause it sounds so good
but if you really want me, move slow
there's things about me you just have to know

I'll just hang around and you'll see
there's nowhere I'd rather be
if you love me, trust in me
the way that I trust in you+

``memories at 11:31 am


[`enjoying`] i feel like i'm falling

lost in Your embrace.


hmms,woke up 7.58am by 2 sms.hahah.replied 1 and somehow went back to sLp again till 9.14am.haha.wonder how come i could rem. e time so well --;; on e comp. and all i want is to listen to this song...it's juz so nice.lost in His embrace...wahh.tmr sch starting.oohs.and i'm so happy...hahah.wonder if i've at LEAST slim down a BIT.hahah.and i'm juz gonna stick with it...1 meal a day.that's all.heez.and continue all my skippings + push-ups + sit-ups.hahah. early in e morning chatting with rach and paLx already.hahah.yeahx!! later going out with my family...heez...it's been a LONG time since e whole family go out. somehow,i felt that today is juz gonna be a fab. day!! heez...early morning it's so smooth already...can't imagine e rest of my day xD

+Standing tall in this wide space
Getting lose in Your embrace
I see a fire

I feel like i'm falling
Over and over with You
It's not just a feeling
But i know that He is real

I feel like i'm falling
Into the arms of the mighty God
It's not just a feeling
But i know that He is real

You drawing me closer to Your side
To seek this place i know i can hide
With one glance You captured my heart
You speak Your word to set me apart+
correct me if i'm wrong and fill in e blanks for me.hahah

-once again,i'm falling into Your arms-

``memories at 10:49 am


[`enjoying`] i feel like i'm falling

h a p p i n e s s


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great day today! meet up paLx this morning at somerset station.went to help to do e deco for church development.left ard 11am and help a bit in e bulletins.but most of e times was walking here and there. haha.prayer meet was great.after prayer meet went down to heeren together with my xT.she went there to buy sweets for her contact.really see e love she has for e ppl.WFL was great too.learnt how to handle different kinds of situation.was grouped together with eeLee,yihui,daniel,dave and peter.and i was e narrator.a bad narrator i was -_____-"" but i still think that walmond's grp one is corny!! haha...a LAN game and can get him for service. maybe guys like this eh?ahaha.before WFL end,we sang "i love u debbie/walmond deep down in my heart(2x) talk abt deep deep down down deep down in my heart(2x)" to e both of them cuz it was THEIR birthday! h@ppy 18th b!r+hd@y dEbBiE and h@ppy 15th b!r+hd@y waLmOnD! haha...after WFL we went to cuppage 1st level to have a bite...and somehow OUR unit was splited into 2 teams.e core team and e younger believers.haha.okays...wearing skirt is NOT bad...but i can't sit in my comfortable position!! hpmn...!! had a hard time during WFL cuz of e skirt...haha.but paLx was saying that i looked gd in skirt.heez.service was great!! had an extended praise!! heez...and reagan played after having a break for quite long.and it was cassian's first time playing on stage.oohs...and e bass guitar that my shifu was playing juz looked so nice!! O_O white color...nice nice...!! after service gather e unit and we sang birthday song to debbie.at starhub we mualuated her also.hahah.and we had dinner together!! for e very first time almost e WHOLE unit had dinner together.and we spent time affirming debbie too.after that had meeting then i went off to somewhere else to walk...today's worship really spoke to me.that my one desire is to be with Him.sermon too.that have i forgotten my first love? and to always keep my desire for Him...nv let it go.

*to meiyan
God is always waiting for u to come home,He yearns for e day that u come back to His side.really wants to see u making e right decision...have a heart that truly wants to seek after Him...-hugs- always here for u.

*to debbie
thanks shepherd...for e gd and bad times we had.e love that u'd showered upon me is really sth that i'll not forget.seen ur desire in serving Him,and VERY soon,we'll BREAK into a UNIT!! -mUhAhAx-

*to walmond
though don't really know u,but somehow ur birthday juz falls on e same day as my shepherd,so juz drop a notex for u. really wants to see u SOON,raising up as a CL,taking care of His sheep...

+You gave it all for me
My soul desire, my everything
And all I am is devoted to You

How could I fail to see
You are the love that rescued me
And all I am is devoted to You

And oh, how could I not be moved, Lord here with you
So have Your way in me, Cause Lord there is just one thing
that I will seek

This is my cry, my one desire
Just to be where You are Lord, Now and forever
Its more than a song, My one desire
Is to be with You, Is to be with You,Jesus

The one thing, the one thing I ask, Is to be with You
The one thing, the one thing I ask, Is to be with You+

God...i don't ask for anything.i juz want to always rem. my first love with You...that how You'd brought me back to Your side.guilding me and moulding me.Lord,all i ask is to be with You.now and forever.nv to leave You. and Lord,this is my true desire


i sometimes wonder abt u,
wonder abt e things u do,
i'd seen ur glorious moments,
ur happiest moments.

and now i know that it's coming back,
it's not gonna be like last time,
cuz i'll not let it happened that way again.

all i want to say is,
have a heart of obedience that seeks after Him+



-let e WOG change e perspective of OUR lifes!-

``memories at 1:24 am

Saturday, June 28, 2003
[`enjoying`] a place called grace

in a split second,you juz make me so proud of you.


heez...NOT going training tmr.gonna help xiao wen.hmms,was so happy after chatting with bUdDyz.don't ask me why.ohhs wells,confirmation wasn't that gd.but we're believing for more tmr! juz place ur faith and trust in Him and everything will be alright :) had a casual chat with pherd.then crapped with paLx for 1hr 10mins uh? hahah...then we continued when we was in MSN.heez...seems like MSN is a gathering for NEB(soon to be conquered by US!!),a place to crap and see e other side of us -grins- oohs.heez...gonna wear skirt tmr? hmms, piggyx bringing for me.i mean i have larr.but don't want to wear mine...see until bored already.so wearing her's! heez...and tmr reaching nexus ard 9.50am? meeting paLx 9.45am at somerset station...am real looking forward to tomorrz...-grins widely + jumping around-

yeahx! completed skippings + push-ups.now left with sit-ups :)

*ah ling meimei
heez...forget to type in my previous entry.hmms,be strong girLx,God is there for u.not forgetting me.juz ring me up when u need to find juz that someone to vent out ur angers or happiness okays? i'll be there.always a phone call away -hugs u tightly-

-a simple smiLe that shows on my face-

``memories at 1:32 am

Friday, June 27, 2003
[`enjoying`] to the ends of the earth

i stand on e ground where we had left our sweet memories.


hmms,came back 45mins ago.had a great follow-up! was waiting for my sHeePx at bishan mrt station and saw daryl and donavan.then saw brandon and his guys also.when my sHeepx arrived,both of us went round hunting for places for follow-up.and so pathetic,half way through e follow-up one guy came to sit behind my sHeePx and started to smoke! -frowns- then i discovered that both my sHeePx and me dislike ppl who smoke! hahax.but nevertheless,this was one of e follow-up that i'm so happy abt.seen her desire towards knowing God :) really very happy for her -hugs chin tightly- met huishi after follow-up and we went walk walk...kay joo last min. can't come.we went UP and DOWN searching for e stuffs that we want to buy and we finally settled for 3 items.heez.when we came out from 37-degree i saw shifu,reagan,cassian and wen jun.i guess they were filming...cuz wen jun was carrying camera?then e 3 of us went to OP to browse and wen jun saw me.and he was telling e others.though nv work with him before but i believe that i've a lot of things that i can learn from him if i ever work together with him :) hmms,seems like i met a LOT of ppl today uh? then after that i brought e 2 of them to e bubble tea shop that my fren had recommanded.then i met my sister up and we went home together.she bought me a bread and give me a lift home.hahah...was act. quite tired today...ohhs,i really pray that my sHeePx can go for tmr's service...cuz her parents coming singapore...was act. eating some tomatoes before my dinner.quite nice...heez...now so happy.my guestbook is almost done! juz want to edit some stuff...thankiex to valsie.heez...


teach me not to let it comes back
cuz whenever i'm at e ground that we'd been before,
it juz come back naturally.



-prays hard for later confirmation!-

``memories at 7:31 pm


[`enjoying`] spread the love

it juz stays in my memories


boo hoo!! they all having fun now!! boo hoo!! argh.juz cannot live without fun one day.hmms,WILL go to e nx CL re-treat!! hahaha...hmms,woke up at 10+am...wanted to slp more but decided to wake up and do at least a few sums of my maths.hahah.realised that i left my eng compre. summary,ss,chi assignment,maths and F&N!! boo hoo...means i haven't even manage to complete one!! -sigh- but e maths is quite easy...and i think i can complete by today.don't think i'm intending to do ss.hahaha...not really clear of what to do.well,now is 11+am... think after awhile will go finish my eng + maths assignment.hmms,tmr having training...WILL go.hahah...now playing chess with wen bing.and somehow i dreamt of sth weird yesterday.hahaha...later having follow-up...haven't even prepare yet.really pray that my sHeePx will grow :) boo hoo.e game is so slow...hahah...but i'm leading...yeahx!! -ssccrreamx around- tmr service!! oohs,really pray that confirmation will be gd... :) hahah... don't want to juz hit HIGH during evangelistic service then normal service go down...we're gonna TAKE OVER NEB!! God...we want NEB...then we'll kick seafood to NEE... hahah...

-what You've done for me-

``memories at 11:29 am


[`enjoying`] i'm held by your love

memories juz flash back as day goes by
it often comes back when i pass by e places we'd been
and often when i'm alone.

times might had changed
but e things that we'd done are kept in my memories
that will nv be erased.

u might not even rem. it
but it is priceless to me
so i'll say juz once...
juz once...
that u're forever my friend...


a friend that i treasured and cherished.

``memories at 1:57 am


[`enjoying`] when god ran

dumb and dumberer.


heez...not long ago was replying to ah ling's emailz.-grr- know what?kanah bullied again by shifu.threatened not to teach me guitar again -bahh- hahah.was out of e hse almost 12hrs.powerful eh? God really blessed me today.was raining this afternoon when i reached amk and i was standing at cheers there and i saw debbie was opp. e road,so she came over and shuttled me over to one of e blocks.heez...really thankGod for her cuz i really dun wanna see my baobei guitar getting wet.cg started at ard 2.40pm...and kay joo was so excited to see shirley.hahaha...that girLx ar...! hmms,felt real lousy after finished worshipping God,not that God is lousy...but my guitar skills!! -slam myself on e wall- really...why?! my skills so lousy...!! had guitar lesson after evaluation.and God really blessed me to have patience when teaching...heez :) taught them e strumming for praise and e 4 basic chords.went out with piggyx to watch dumb and dumberer...a very corny show!! haha~!! she called me up juz before cg start.heez...bought a bread at breadtalk and we went to bugis to have a little walked before we headed home.nice nice...saw some stuff that i really yearn to have it.hahaha...and i really enjoyed being with her -hugs piggyx- met up my dad at yishun mrt station and we went home together. was act. being a bit of rude when talking to him...i think i should listen more and have to take notex of my expression...let God's character be in me too!! -smiLex- now listening to blink182's songs.

tmr follow-upping on my sHeePx...heez...wanna do a gd job,want to build her strong!! going out with her and kay joo. -sigh- tmr they having CL re-treat!! nvm...work harder!! i'll go to e nx one!!

played this song during sermon discussion,really touched by God's loved.

+Almighty God, the great i am
Immovable rock,omnipotent,powerful awesome Lord
Victorious Warrior,commanding King of Kings
Mighty Conqueror,and the only time
The only time i ever saw Him run

Was when He ran to me,He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest
Said"My son's come home again"
Lifted my face,wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice
He said"Son,do you know I still love you?"
He caught me by surprise,when God ran

The day i left home i knew i'd broken His heart
And i wondered then if things could ever be the same
Then one night I remembered His love for me
And down that dusty road ahead i could see
It was the only time
It was the only time I ever saw Him run

And then He ran to me,took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest
Said,"My son's come home again"
Lifted my face,wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice
He said,"Son,do you know I still love you?"
He caught me by surprise and brought me to my knees
When God ran,I saw Him run to me.

I was so ashamed,all alone and so far away
But now I know He's been waiting for this day

I saw Him run to me,He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest
And said,"My son's come home again"

Lifted my face,wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice I felt His love for me again
He ran to me,He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest
Said,"My son's come home again"
Lifted my face,wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice
He said,"Son"
He called me Son
He said ,"Son do you know I still love you?"
He ran to me
And then I ran to Him
When God ran+

rach...!! h@ppy 16th b!r+hd@y!! heez...really thanks for e times when i needed someone to be there for me :) -hugs u tightly-

*ywans* quite tired...but haven't complete my sit-ups and push-ups.and also haven't complete my holiday assignments.and guess what?i'd found my maths + chi assignments.shall mug myself real soon after i finished doing sit-ups and push-ups! -grins- *ywans*

heez...juz finished doing push-ups...ohhs wells,finished my sit-ups too :) argh.piggyx and me juz can't find e soundtracks of e movie we'd caught juz now...-sigh- e song soOoOo nice!!

oohs,my baobei guitar is with gwen...hahah...like keep on throwing my baobei here and there...think i'll get back on monday after seed...muz remember.and i shall practice on "What You'd done for me"...hmms...haha.and...i'm gonna follow God's plan...better than e thousand plans i had for myself!! heez...i'll start mugging on my assignment real soon...heez...now so happy...!! -grins-


times that i was alone,
memories juz flows back,
but i know that u're always my gd friend...
-smiLes-



-enjoyed myself-

``memories at 1:28 am

Thursday, June 26, 2003
[`enjoying`] your love is beautiful

let e praise begin.


ohhs.this song is juz so nice...e electric guitar!! -ssccrreamx- hmms,well,decided to delete e previous entry.shan't explain why.later meeting kay joo for praise practice!! heez...so happy for her that she can become a PL already!! believe that she can do a gd job! 1.30pm meeting debbie for worship practice...working together with paLx to teach our grp ppl guitar!! heez...pray that i can really impart e skills to them ;) hmms,was reading through jeremy's blog and i can say that i always learnt from his blog :) -breathes- God...i don't wanna be fat...hahaha...okay,let me go practice my worship song again :)

-Your love is beautiful-

``memories at 12:23 pm

Wednesday, June 25, 2003
[`enjoying`] graduation

under e rain,i felt we're bonded.


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decided to delete e previous entry.cuz i think it's too MESSY.don't really like my entries to be in messy,here and there.hmms,today was pretty gd.heez...morning supposed to meet penguinnie but in e end i met "bro"...ahaha.then upon reaching saw piggyx's mum...then penguinnie and xT was there already.val and piggyx awake already.hahax. and guess what? shifu called at ard 9.45am asking piggyx whether lesson was at 10am or 10.30am *faints* so they reached ard 10.30am?shifu,reagan and cassian.and i was carrying either cuddy or goofy and reagan scared of dog.so does bella.hahax...okay,shan't be evil.before they arrive,i learnt how to play piano.hahaha...so happy.felt quite talented -mUhAhAx- ohhs wells,i juz love instruments that much.so i went first before piggyx.and was interupted by penguinnie -looks at penguinnie- 2nd time.hahah...alright larr.understand that u're trying to play well for cg *winks* then learnt e full song of "King of Majesty"...so happy now.then learnt how to pluck e strings faster.hmms,that one have to practice real hard.oohs,and i learnt some finger exercise! heez...and thankShifu! really learnt sth from u today! -smiLex- after that i loitered ard e hse...then walked goofy together with val.hahax...and before that seafood was carrying one of e dogs near reagan and bella.they really scared of dog...their expressions,actions amuses us.hahaha... okay okay...don't be evil.anyway,after walking e dog somehow it rain.and piggyx asked me to go play in e rain together with her and i went.we ran UP and DOWN e road.and we really enjoyed. then when we was sitting outside e hse,i found a pool of water and i used my leg to kicked e water towards her,guess what? she took her water hose and started spraying water on me!! hahah... real fun manx!! i like playing in e rain.hmms,juz finished listening to blink182's "eMo".think i sort-of understand how come cassian likes blink182 so much...e electric guitar is so strong! it was a HARD time trying to get e ppl to have e lunch.all of us was like "later later" so i suggested to have lunch TOGETHER.and e girLx were having lunch at e round table while e 3 guys had it at another table.it was corny,cuz we were ALL switching e songs.don't think we was able to listen to at LEAST one song to be complete.hahaha... first was cassian switching to his song after seafood switched.and our eyes all goes O_O and we laughed.ahahax. rushed down to rix hse for cg.didn't managed to pick my sHeePx up but thanks to debbie who had helped me to pick her up :) and thanks to shifu who gave me a lift to e opp. bus-stop.cuz i was rushing...and really thanks cuz my leg muscle was rather tight.so can't really climb e flight of stairs.i'm juz so glad that my sHeePx went for cg.heez...now using flip open hp! so happy! my sHeePx lent me her flip open hp!! hahax...oh wells,tmr gonna be another busy day.prayerfully that i can complete my eng assignment later on! heez...

*to piggyx
hheeyys farloe piggyx!! heez...this is specially for u! really LLoovvEE u manx.though we wasn't from e same sch nor same unit,but i juz felt so comfortable when we're together.and i truly believe that ALL e camps had drawn us nearer to each other.not forgetting this afternoon's rain.though it's short and we got ourselves wet,but i simply enjoy it :) really wants to build a deeper + closer piggyx-ship with u! hahah...with God in e picx! and like i'd said to u "if u're bored,ring me UP! i'll be free to talk to u." really happy to serve together with a piggyx like u! hahaha...-hugs- love you so much *muacks*


running in e rain,
draws us closer,
memories flash back,
and God's there,
together with us.

``memories at 9:36 pm

Tuesday, June 24, 2003
[`enjoying`] my god

it feels so cool to be out there.


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hahax...piggyx...we're e same ;)

hmms,was doing my hmw this afternoon.then went to buddyz hse to help her with her chi assignment.her bed was so cozy...and i ate a piece of her cake.hahax.supposed to go out with rach before going celine's hse but last min i nv meet my fren already so nv go out.was act. flipping through "san zi jing" before i realise that it was act. quite an interesting bk.left her hse ard 8.15pm.borrowed a no. of archie comics. took bus home.alighted one stop before my actual stop and felt so cooling...-grins- now thinking of my breezy morning again! -sigh- e whole holidays also nv go east coast at ALL *sobs* yeahx! -jumps around- tmr having guitar lesson! having it at piggyx hse! and hmms,heard that reagan and cassian teaching also.hahax... hmms...suddenly missed cuddy and goofy -mUhAhAx- -looks at penguinnie- tmr lesson at 10am! meeting penguinnie 9.20am at e bridge.ahahax.yeahx!! my sHeePx going cg tmr!! heez...

hmms,this song is nice!! go dl it...if can't then get from me!!

+My God has never let me down
My God has turn my world around
He loves me even though i know i don't deserve Him

My God has never turn away
He's with me every single day
He has broken all the chains and set the captives free+

-sigh- pathetic me.always cannot have self-control towards my mum's cooking.she juz cooked so...-thumbs up!- hmms,juz finish 50 push-ups and 50 sit-ups.and more push-ups aren't that all e way down that kind.juz hmms, okay larr.pray that i really can slim down in 6 days time.hahaha...i'm gonna do push-ups,sit-ups and skipping everyday!! dON'T CARE! oohs.and this morning i completed 500 skippings.pray that i can do that EVERYDAY.and also to control my diet!! heez...was chatting with my sHeePx juz now.she CALLED me!! heez...so happy! after that called penguinnie and let her hear "When God Ran" twice.oh wells,think i'll turn in early tonight.


e silence around u makes me wonder how much i know u
i wonder do i really know u that much
and no...i'm not gonna learn to say gd bye anymore
cuz it's juz so painful.



-e coolness brings e memories back to my mind again-

``memories at 11:16 pm


[`enjoying`] through it all

though it's painful,i endure.


hmms,obviously i skipped my training.sLept late last nitex and this morning when supposed to wake up my neck was aching.so decided to skip e training.hmms,slept till 10.30am and came online.saw wen bing and started to chat with him.i treat him juz like my little bro.and also aaron.often asked aaron how's his studies and stuff lidat.guess i learnt how to love and care for ppl when i only came to church.was reading through my pengunnie's livejournal and a sentence really caught my attention "i should: let go of the past." hmms,this is e thing that i've to learn to let it go .talked to char last nitex and one thing i learnt from her is to really pray.pray and believe.i want to make this a point in my life that i'll juz really pray to God.many things had happened to me recently and i believe that if only i'd pray,i'll have peace. peace that e world CANNOT give.and i'm so thankful to Him who had blessed me with sHeePx(sokchin),and we was chatting with her yesterday nitex,she told me that she really thank God for all of us,that we all love her.i believe that it is only e genuine love that she'd received makes her wanna stay!

as i listen through this song,i think of e camps that i'd attended.how God has brought me through all e problems and circumstances.how i'd struggled through problems and problems.and how i'd changed from camp to camp.i'm really grateful at how He had remain faithful through times that is hard and when i disobeyed Him till e times that i make decisions for Him and He blessed me."God...what have i done to deserve such things?" e one thing is only Love.e love that He has for me...



God,
i kneel down before You,
with a heart of obedience,
seeking for strength and for You to heal my heart.

i pray that You'll only be e center focus of my life,
e ONLY one that i rely onto.
cuz God,i can't help but to love You more and more each day...


lost in Your embrace.

``memories at 11:57 am


[`enjoying`] when god ran

this is me.





-quietly sitted at a corner thinking-

``memories at 12:24 am

Monday, June 23, 2003
[`enjoying`] i'm held by your love

simply running away.



Which [Rainbow Colours] are you?

wOo.my fav. color! hahaha...

seed was great! learnt a lot.and worship was so...thanksgiving! =) i really enjoyed e whole day with my sisters in-Christ throughout e day! met ee voon and paLx up at orchard to walk + shop.and we was so crappy...crap all e way! hahaha...and we really enjoyed ourselves a LOT.we laughed and laughed and laughed.hahaha.we went to far east and ck tang then to nexus to see rain,gwen and meiting if they were there for membership class.and praise God! there were there already! then we took train down to rix hse for seed meet.and we met debbie at e coffeeshop.she bought rojak, ee voon prepared sandwiches,paLx bought jelly? then i cooked instant noodles. hahaha...and we indeed enjoyed ourselves! oohs! not forgetting that kay joo join us in seed meet too! really see how she grow =) hoo! juz finished talking to my sHeePx!! hehex...feeling tired now...and tmr having training! cannot don't go...cuz last sat i nv go.body was aching.hmms,e beginning of e seed we ate e food we'd bought and cooked.and we truly enjoyed ourselves!! cuz we crap and we think of how God has bless us within this 2 weeks...and truly,God blessed us that much! 2 converts in our grp within 2 weeks and we hit goal consistently for 2 weeks! believe that God will use us mightily in e times to come! worship was great! we sang give thanks and i'm held by Your love.learnt to really take time to think of e things that God had bless me and really give thanks with a grateful heart.and it is by God's faith that i can be able to do so much things for Him! oohs! i got back my baobei guitar already! heez...!

*learnt from seed
-God's word is e truth! -dUh- [-John 17:17 "Sanctify them by the truth: your word is truth-]
-WOG builds me UP and keeps me strong
-[-Psalm 119:133 "Direct my footsteps according to your word; let NO sin rule over me"-]
-[-Psalm 119:11 "I have hidden your word in my heart that I might not sin against you"-]
-[-Psalm 119:105 "Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light for my path"-]
-[-John 8:32 "Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free"-]

amen.always cling on to God's word amen? =)

-for when i'm alone,i still think...-

``memories at 9:19 pm


[`enjoying`] your love is beautiful

satisfied.


hmms,felt so satisfied now.moved my room furniture from place to place =) and i'd bathed my white cat!! hahaha....hmms,she bite me!! -brr- anyway,i dragged myself up from bed cuz i slept quite last nitex.hahaha.
oh my...now listening to this song and e sound that produced by electric guitar is so nice!! hahaha...and guess what? 1 side of my speaker produces NO sound.if anyone knows how to fix it pls teach me...then i can blast out manx~!! ahahax...and i'm gonna bathe soon...going out soon.hahaha...-sticks out tongue-

-Your love is beautiful...!-

``memories at 11:41 am


[`enjoying`] i will pray

mugging myself to hide my feelings.


hmms,sort-of juz finished shifting furnitures from one corner to e other.felt quite satisfied with e plan that i'd planned to put e stuff at e place -smiLex- -looks at my table- yep,shall reduce e amount of things on my table in e days to come.probably tmr.

ripped off from seafood's blog ::

i try: very hard to be more like You.
i know: that He loves me.
i want: to lead e life that He wants me to :)
i wish: to be more like Jesus.
i hate: sin
i miss: e days that we were together.
i fear: to be in loneliness -frowns-
i hear: e drum beat of "shout to e Lord"
i search: for Him
i believe: in He,aLone.
i wonder: whom i'll married and will i achieve e things that i want.
i regret: one of e things i'd made.but certainly not e present decision.
i love: God and e people around me :)
i care: for e people around me.
i always: allows memories to lead me into e past.
i cry: when i can't take e pains and hurts anymore.
i fight: against satan for people to know Him.
i write: e memories into e hearts of ours.
i win: e hearts of people that had came to know Him and i will continue.
i lose: e people that have not come to know Him to satan at e present.but i'll win them in e FUTURE!
i confuse: some people in my life.
i listen: to music and e heartbeats of people.
i need: You.
i breathe: in the breath that He gave me every second :)
i should: not procastinate ANYMORE and start planning on what i want to achieve!
i dream: of my close friends.
i feel: that i should allow more of God to mould my life.
i am not: gonna involve in any relationship that might lead me to drift apart from my Heavenly Father. this i promise.

-eyes closing-


God,
You know that i'm in pain now.
and God,
You know that it's painful to be in this period of time

but God,
all i ask now is that i'll allow You to heal me.
yes God,
i cry out to You at this very moment
for You to heal me and allow myself to embrace in Your unfailing arms



+The only time i ever saw Him run
Was when He ran to me,He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest
Said"My son's come home again"
Lifted my face,wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice
He said"Son,do you know I still love you?"
He caught me by surprise,when God ran+


God,let me run back to e home that You'd created for us.



just us.

``memories at 12:58 am

Sunday, June 22, 2003
[`enjoying`] god of wonders

miss.but i'll practice self-control.


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had a fun time with paLx today.went orchard and walk and walk and walk.and we went to far east BK to have a bite and we stayed there quite long to chat.memories flows back as i chat with her...-sigh- she was giving me e full support of e decision that i'd made.somehow,i get along well with her.reached home ard 7pm i guess.oohs,guess that guitar lesson is on wed's morning at piggyx hse.juz had a tiff with my dad.nvm...maybe i must learn not to be so sensitive. -looks at my hp- hmms.what am i thinking?! *shOo!*

memories flows back as i walked along orchard roads...thinking of e times we've been together.what a wonderful memories...but somehow,it brings me into e sadness again.

-hurts...pains...-

``memories at 8:44 pm


[`enjoying`] when god ran

felt His love for me once again.


hmms,juz finished amending stats.now waiting for e printing to complete.hmms,was listening to this song when i was amending e stats and felt so Love.nice song...heez...*smells* wOo!! e food is so nice!! hahax~!! and hmms,gotto go meet paLx...bye!

-He ran towards me...-hugs- -

``memories at 1:59 pm


[`enjoying`] divine exchange

surrounded by leaders.hahax


hmms,now at central HQ amending stats.udrena can't come down with me cuz her auntie go her hse.hahax.and i went to my sister hse before taking bus,to take back my hp.and she scolded me becuz she was still sleeping -______-"" what a pig she is.can really see that she's irrirated to wake up from her bed.cuz she scolded me when she open e door for me.hahax.and know what?! she NEVER charge my hp!! -grr- hmms,and i nv know that i'll meet xT at yishun mrt station! hahax~!! and we took e train together.she meeting sophia to walk walk.then there were some corny scenes when we was in e train -mUhAhAx- hmms,now charging my hp at shirley's room.hehex.on e way here i was not very sure or rather i'm afraid that i might miss e correct stop.but thank God,after awhile i recognized e stop.hmms,then i was sure abt e blk but i wasn't sure abt e floor.then i called timothy who asked me to call de wen.but he nv pick up e call so i rem. livi and i called her.hahax.when i entered e hse they were having teachings.so i make my way to her room to start my work for e Lord! hehex~!! oohs! later meeting paLx for a walk then also accompanying her to buy her sis's present! ahahax~!! hehex.so fun.hmms,i like shirley's keyboard..so nice to type...ahahax.oohs! i'm gonna change e layout of my room soon!! hoo hoo!! -grins widely- am so looking forward to this week cuz i've a LOT of things to complete...like my hmw and changing e layout of my room! heez...! :)

-in everything u do,do UNTO e Lord!-

``memories at 1:27 pm


[`enjoying`] let me die

a short note i'd left for u.


woke up not long ago.at least i'd BRUSHED my teeth.hahax.and i'm now drinking my lemon juice *sLurPz* nice nice.hahax.yesterday sLept at 2.36am i guess.these 2 saturdays have been sleeping at 2+am.hmms,yesterday really had a fun time chatting with ee voon and paLx! and trust me,we really DO crap a LOT.and yes,it's a LOT.we believe that if deb was in e conversation,she'll literally *faint* ahahax.but anyway,hope she's enjoying herself at UL re-treat! hmms,talking abt that, -sigh- northeast CL re-treat is on this coming fri.and means,we CAN'T have guitar lesson on that day i guess.and,sad thing is,i'm NOT a CL.so can't join in e fun! but nvm,e VERY next CL re-treat i'll be there! heez...ohhs,later going to central HQ to amend stats.supposingly to go paLx hse to stay tonight but i think i'll go another day,with my SO MANY homeworks,i don't think i can complete in a day or two... so i guess i've to slowly do.but anyway,it's a MUST to complete in my this very LAST week. -sigh- holidays pass so fast. juz in a blink of eyes,i gonna say BYE to my holidays and have to slog for 3mths? but...i'm slogging together with my Heavenly Father! so...i'm okiex.ahahax~!

-slowly analyse it...-

``memories at 9:47 am


[`enjoying`] from the beginning until now(jeff chang)

a simple good bye.


so hyper now.chatting with ee voon and paLx on MSN now!! ahahax~!! am so convicted abt e goodness of MSN6.0! so guys...go DOWNLOAD it! ahahax~!!

prayer meet was different today.had praise first! am so hyped up.and hahax...my shifu was singing.heez...and paLx was beside me...hahax...but all praise goes to God amen?! had 1hr FREE before WFL start...and we laze ard and literally stroll down to WFL.

hmms,WFL was fast? but was quite sleepy...hahax.very tempted to slp in e class.after WFL my grp went to macs to have a bite...then ian passed me sihan's hp telling me that peter got some stuff to tell me.ahahax.and guess what?he passed 3 girLx from serangoon sec to us! hahax...so i am supposed to take care of them...and ee voon and me make a trip down to cineleisure to find peter and was surprised to see him with 3 little kids.as in,small in size...hahax.

service was great! and irene and wanqing turned up! heez...so happy!! and sokchin together with wan xian and weifen turned up for service!! praiseGod!! hehex...so happy. though i missed e part where they announced e winners,but i'm still thankful to God.sokchin was so responsive!! hehex!! and know what? we HIT goal!! our goal was 20,and we hit 24!! wOo~!! *cLapz to God and nEb1 + 4*!! was soOoOo happy that we hit goal consistently for 2 weeks!! shall give our best for all e service amen?! we will and soon to break into a UNIT!! and i shall and make a point to keep my spirit always UP for God! amen!

reached home ard 11.05pm.hmms,didn't collect + key in stats today.had meeting with my grp's core team!! and, i was e ONLY one that had my dinner.and honestly speaking,i'm a ROUGH girLx,dun have a gd set of "nice" eating manner.hahax.went out with seafood to walk walk at centrepoint,then cineleisure and then we sat down at somewhere while she eat her ice-cream then i drink my green tea.ahahax.then took bus 124 together with her and i alighted at far east.took bus 105 then changed to bus 56 to my fren's hse to return stuff.ahahax.

+Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever+


i'd nv know that u would treat my actions so simple.
everything has ended.
i've put a full stop to it.
thanks for all e sweet memories that u'd leave in my heart.
u are still a friend that i treasure a LOT.



-yes,still a dear friend to me-

``memories at 1:42 am

Friday, June 20, 2003
[`enjoying`] complicated

if only i can chose to remain in my dreams forever,i will.
if only i can hide my feelings forever,i will.
if only i can run away from this realistic world,i will
but,i can't.so e only thing i can do is to

face it.

``memories at 9:08 pm


[`enjoying`] graduation

thanks rachel.appreciate it -hugs-




went out with rachel to junction 8 after attending seafood's cg.met reagan there.then later saw my shifu there.think they were having shepherding.was walking rounds and rounds with rachel at junction 8.didn't want to sit down cuz it was quite crowded.-sigh- rachel was nice...she had time and she asked me out for a walk + talk.and she was really a great help to me :) upon meeting up,she kept on asking "are you ok?" i was like "yeahx" in a happy spirit.but i was very afraid that i might be hiding my feelings.and she thinks that i was hiding my feelings.hmms,maybe i was.but expect me to cry in a shopping center? and she can't really accompany me long.but i really appreciate e short 1+ hr.it was pretty gd.gave me some advice and she support me of my decision...infact she asked me if i would want to heed her advice...but i was like "i think it's not necessary" but i really appreciate it.

rachel:: really thanks :) i hope e pain will get over it real soon.perhaps,i need u to be with me.somehow,i wish tmr comes quick.it might get e pain over faster -cries-

/.p.s.\ i'm NOT involve in any form of relationship.pls dun get e wrong idea.

``memories at 4:59 pm


[`enjoying`] complicated

can't get to sLp.


hmms,think that now i'm more easy to apologise to ppl.but,have to work more in my character.let God mould me... :) was disturbed by babygirLx.she woke up and started to talk,sing,mumble to herself.and i was there,trying to get back to slp.then she sat on my leg,with her backside ALL wet!! -grr- anyway,i lay at my bed,starring at e ceiling thinking a lot of things,so decided to come online...and i spent 5mins to dl e lastest MSN messenger! -grr- that's so long...but,it was a nice layout!! u guys juz have to go dl it!! oohs.have to leave e hse at 10.15am...attending seafood's cg that she'd prepared for yeokx! hehex~!! after cg have to wait till 2pm to get back my baobei guitarx from ah bao.hahaha.so gotta bathe soon...anyway,i likes bathing! hahax~!! oohs.now listening to "Big Big World"... so sweet of my seafood trying to play for me this song on wed? hahaha...hmms,thinking of what to do after cg.ahh.so hungry now!! *growls for seafood* it's time to FEED me!! now listening to another nice song... "ni yao de ai" ahh.let me think of e meteor garden (1) e scenes...hahaha...okok,shall not get into it *winks*

hmms,heard from shifu nobody responded to e bassist thingy.hahax.puay! wanna go?! ahahax. *mischivious laughter* hahaha...got e sudden feel of trying to learn bass! ahahax~!! -off to bathe-

-guitarist for God,amen?!-

``memories at 9:56 am


[`enjoying`] my memory(piano + violin)

guitar lesson CANCELLED.


what to say? guitar lesson cancelled lorr.

-walks away-

-feeling vexed-

``memories at 12:33 am

Thursday, June 19, 2003
[`enjoying`] are you happy now

seafood,i know that u do care for me.let me have a little of my privacy? -hugs-


hmms,felt so loved.by seafood.hahax.and guess what?she wanted to trick me into saying some stuff out. but...hahax.i know that she cares larr.but...hmms,juz wanna keep some stuff to myself :)

seafood:: don't worry abt me okiex? -hugs-

oohs.she sent me this song...e song that i juz finished listening...can't really turn it loud cuz babygirLx is sleeping...-sigh- was chatting with rach half way and she asked me to hold on for awhile then nv return back already...-grr- hmms,seems lk...i'd been quite negative these few days.well,think i better don't blog anything negative as much as i can...so that won't let ppl worry abt me and won't stumble ppl also :) oohs...tmr friday already...how fast a week pass and how things happened so much uh? hahax~!! hmms,tmr having guitar lesson... :) prayerfully + hopefully that i can learn much more things! -grins-

-everything will turn out fine i guess-

``memories at 11:51 pm


[`enjoying`] when god ran

may e sweet memories always leaves in ur mind.


-smiLex- had a great cg today! we used e balcony cuz north c and some east grp used e living room as they combined cg.pre-tertiary was using e room and brandon's grp was using it followed by joanne's grp.hahax.so e 9 of us were stucked at e balcony.anyway,it was a warm fellowshippy cg! hehex~!! and i'm so glad that sokchin join us! praise God! attended mei ting's grandfather's funeral.glad that she is alright :) -hugs- take care girLx?! had evaluation at macs.had a nice time evaluating! hehex~!! after that took bus home...was thinking of a couple of stuff...seen how kay joo and mei ting have matured in Christ :) was chatting with rach juz now...but now she leave me alone and talk on e phone already...-grr-



it's really pains me to make that decision...can u understand how i feel? -sigh- -curls in a corner-

paLx...i LLoovvEE you.i truly do -hugs-

+You are the Love of my life
You are the Hope that i cling to
You mean more than this world to me

I wouldn't trade You for silver or gold
I woudln't trade You for riches untold
You are,You are my everything

I wouldn't take one step without You
I could never go on
I couldn't live one day without You
I don't have the strength to make it on my own+

+God,
i pray that i'll always be a strong girL for You
i want to always cling on to You,nv let You go...

God,
i know that You are always there when i need You,
i know that You are always listening to my sorrows and You always knows how i feel+

-in any situation,i know clearly that You are always with me-

``memories at 9:16 pm


[`enjoying`] ni ya de ai (penny dai)

if everything were to juz run smoothly on e nitex i'd chosen.


woke up half an hr ago.had 2 slices of bread + egg.dreamt of celine,bro and a few more ppl.dun really want to eleborate e dream.still thinking...



quietly i'm walking out...

"God,
I know You are the only one that can help me
I know that whatever i'm feeling now,You know it.
You know how painful it is for me to make e decision for You
But God,You know that I really want to be more closer to You,don't You?
God,may You just bless me that everything will run smoothly on e nitex that i'd chosen.
Cuz God,
i know time is running out...
And if things come back again,God,You're e one that allows it to happen.isn't it?
Bless Your daughter Lord..."

for u
+As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever+

- let me go-

``memories at 10:21 am


[`enjoying`] from the beginning until now(jeff chang)

the thought is still in my mind...


came home like half and hr ago from causeway point.was shopping with kai hui for kai ling's present. her birthday tmr.hahax...kai ling is NOT kai hui's sister.hmms,had dinner with kai hui.as in i see her eat larr.then after that went to shop shop ard.then in e end she settle for a photo frame for kai ling at "Give a Name".then we went to search for a birthday card but can't get any cuz most of e shops are in e midst of closing already.hmms,saw some nice stuff at "X Craft".feel lk buying but NO money.ahahax.saw e army pants that i'd told paLx abt it.and we're gonna get it real soon right?! -sigh- saw e spiky slippers that i wanted to get it before "faith camp" but dunno how i spent my money at that time also...*sulks* and also a hood sweater which is in red color! ahh...so many things to buy but NO money...-ssccrreamx- kai hui was asking me abt e matter again...and i was like...-sigh- if can then can,cannot then cannot...let God decide yeahx? i'm not that anxious...hmms,heard this song when passed by e bossini shop at northpoint...and it brings me back to some of e memories...

-double sigh- my mind was occupied with e thought that strucked my mind...dunno what am i supposed to do now...guess it's God that's telling me to do it...hmms,think i've to start packing e stuff to return to my fren real soon...have been holding it for quite awhile...hahax....

hmms,tmr dropping by piggyx hse to return her e roller blades and getting e baggy jeans back from her...hahax...juz rem. that there's a straight bus from yishun interchange which is very gd! ahahax...

+And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And we get real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

a, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly+



-curls in a corner- can u see e tear?

-sigh- is everything juz gonna end in a nitex that i'd chose? i dunno...am in a sad and caught in dilemma now.dun wish to think of it...

-finally i searched for u,and now i've to let go...-

``memories at 12:02 am

Wednesday, June 18, 2003
[`enjoying`] i feel like i'm falling

am i really serious about my thoughts?


hmms.had new believer's cg today.quite ok.but i learnt that i shouldn't cook so much.but thank God that YS ppl helped me finished e remaining fried rice...else it'll go to e wastebin.was so amused by my seafood juz now at rix hse.hahax.she was singing and was holding my hands...so corny...hahax.seafood! i LLoovvEE yOu! *muacks*oohs.later meeting kai hui at causeway point...she buying slippers...oh my...e show holland village is so amusing!! can't stop laughing manx!!

-sigh- was act. thinking of some stuff on e way home...

-ahh-

``memories at 7:34 pm


[`enjoying`] your love is beautiful

i dislike.


hmms,overslept --;; supposed to wake up at 8.30am to prepare some stuff.but i woke up at 9.42am.had a short chat last nitex with my fren.before that was chatting with kai hui for abt 1hr?! she was bugging me some stuff. ahahax.then i kept on heck care e stuff...then she kept on scolding me...-blehh- was thinking a LOT of thing after i hang up with my fren.and stewpig rach slept so early last nitex...then was sms-ing char till i fall asleep...-_______-"" ahahax.now chatting with rach online...hahax.oohs! my mum fried e rice for e new believers party that we're conducting later on! thanksmummy -hugs-

i'd said e things i dislike...if u think i'm unreasonable,then go ahead being ur defender.maybe for once,u shouldn't tolerate me anymore.i've no comments or dun wish to comment anymore.

-if i could die in my sleep...that would be so peaceful-

``memories at 10:25 am

Tuesday, June 17, 2003
[`enjoying`] sun yanzi's singing from e TV

this i know,my desire




-sigh- am still thinking of becoming a musician for Christ.but e sad thing is they are hunting for bassist.nvm.i believe God has a plan for me :) -smiLex-

-musican for Christ!-

``memories at 10:04 pm


[`enjoying`] lover of my heart

cries out to Him.


-sigh- why am i always e emotional one? why am i always e one that feels so much? can i juz chucked my feelings aside?

+God,You're e one that i cling my Hope to
You're e one that i trust so much
i will give up everything just to walk with You...
yes,this is my promise to You...

hold me in Your arms tightly,won't You?+

+all i want is to see Your face
all i need is a moment of grace
it's in You,
that i have the faith to stand up and be strong

cause i know,i not longer bound
it's in You
that i have found peace of mind freedom from my sin
and the power to love and forgive

i want to walk with You everyday of my life
to talk with You if the good and the strive
You're my friend, You're my Father for all times
nothing can keep us apart+

ahh...Lord...nothing can keep us apart.You'd drew me back to Your side how can i ever leave You again?



God...i pray...that i'll forever remain in Your arms and You'll hold me tightly.God...more of You in my life. -hug me tightly-

-Love You Lord-

``memories at 9:39 pm


[`enjoying`] i feel like i'm falling

He nv fail to help me to decide.


You're 'Faint', Seems like you know what you want,
and you're letting people know- Awsome..but if
you're trying to get them to listen and not run
in fear..don't scream at them so much.


What Linkin Park song from 'Meteora' are you??
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hmms,woke up this morning,was very tempted not to go for training but in e end God helped me and reminded me of my promise to Him of being a dilligent girLx for Him.so i went for training.when approaching e bus-stop,was tempted once again,cuz it started to rain.so i wanted to turn back and return home.but i gave up that idea and i prayed to God to stop e rain.and indeed,He stopped e rain until i was abt to reach sch.since then,it was raining cats and dogs.thank God i brought my guitar to sch,cuz seafood borrowed it from me for e matthew's party she conducting tmr.so jew and me was playing guitar in e canteen cuz can't really have training.but ard 9am mr sim thought of some stuff for us to do.so we start off e day with stretchings,300 skippings,running ard e corridors,400 times of bouncing e ball and ball passing.training ended ard 10.30am. took bus to drag my time so that i won't have nth to do when i reach toa payoh.hahax.had shepherding and i ate western food for my lunch and it taste nice... =) after that we met ruth and we went to far east...then after far east we went to bugis to buy bag.she bought a bag for debbie as her birthday present.juz as we was crossing e road towards bugis village,we saw michelle from central-c and her sheep.hahax.so we went to buy e bag together.had a real hard time of choosing e colors.but in e end,ruth settle for e unique blue and debbie settle down for orange.then i took bus home.was rather tired.perhaps didn't have enough slp these few days.and somehow,i dunno how come yesterday i nv spend QT *repents* shall go spend QT later. -sigh- missing my guitar now.cuz now i'm listening to "King Of Majesty".did a bit of self-reflection today.then i conclude one thing i should understand people more than e comments that i'd received.learn to view e perspective differently but in a loving way.

celine...hahax.gonna sound weird but i long time nv chat with u over e phone already.let alone going out.if u reading this now can juz give me a ring or at least a sms? i miss u...hahax...

hahax...dun anyhow think.i not lesbian...juz that...aiya,dunno how to say.

-and yes,i'm always here for my +siMpsOnx+ family =)-

``memories at 8:12 pm

Monday, June 16, 2003
[`enjoying`] open the eyes of my heart

regret.


stop and think...God always and yearns to speak to us,but are we willing to listen?

seed was great.learnt quite a lot.praise God! and God really spoke to me during worship.before worship, we had games! ahahax~!! as usual,e bros all chucked up at one corner.and we was playing "concentration" and they were all calling among themselves. ahahax.and we got amused by yong kang and some other bros due to their "rythem".ahahax.then we played "watermelon".and we got amused by seafood!! cuz eeLee was saying to change e direction then seafood got it wrong and kept on going e opp. direction!! ahahax~!! and guess for urself...hahax.e other part of e circle didn't get to play.then we had worship.hmms,somehow i feel *cannot be describe* with piggyx sitting beside me.as in felt very gd lidat...but i dunno how to describe that kind of feeling -hugs piggyx tightly- LLoovvEE yOu.learnt abt having simple faith like little children and God's word must be ABOVE everything.before eeLee dispersed us to our smaller grps,we had praise.we sang "i walk by faith".great! then we were broken up into our own units.had a mini-talked with debbie too.learnt sth too :) hahax.friday supposed to go watch movie with chia ling then stay over at her hse.wanted to ask her watch Ju On.then we chatted for so long then she rem. that she having dance performance -bleh- so it was cancelled.going nx week i guess. hahax.now talking to debbie.also accounted to her too :) hahax...seafood so funny~!! hmms,tmr having training. after that meeting debbie for shepherding at toa payoh.then also meeting seafood to pass her guitar.hahax.

-lift up ur head and walk-

``memories at 10:33 pm


[`enjoying`] crash and burn

you know,don't you?


boo! hahax~!! woke up ard 10.30am.was quite shocked cuz from e starting of e holidays till now i haven't sLp until so late before.act. woke up several times juz time i went back to sLp cuz i realised that outside was raining!! so muz seize e opportunity to sLp when it rains!! hahax~!! hmms,wake up until now haven't brush my teeth.oops!! ahahax.oohs!! have to go market soon to buy e lemons!! else i no more lemon juice to drink already...hmms,yesterday was quite tired for me. dunno why.that's why i slept quite early also.put down e phone ard 11.40pm i guess.act. nv really talk cuz my fren also juz busy doing thing -______-"" hahax~!! anyway,kai hui shld be now in e zoo already...-mUhAhAx- she promised her cousin that she'll go with them...hahax~!! -looks at MSN n ICQ list- hmms, so many ppl online that i can chat with now!! hahax~!! but i gotto go and brush my teeth n go buy lemon already!!

-what am i feeling?-

``memories at 11:11 am

Sunday, June 15, 2003
[`enjoying`] through it all

i will never forget how far You'd brought me to.


hmms,stop for a moment and think.when u pray,do u believe? or are u juz praying cuz ur shepherd/leaders asked u to? stop and think...

this is what i'd learnt from QT.to believe in whatever i pray.i think this is e key point of praying.if u pray without believing,it is like mumbling words to urself.juz to get over it.NO!! i muz believe whenever i pray!

hmms.was going through e lesson on Christian Living that my shepherd asked me to look through again.learnt a few things...
-obey even at e most inconvenient times and circumstances
-if i really Love God,i'll obey cuz e prove of my Love for God lies in my obedience towards my leaders
-obey all my leaders no matter how they are like cuz obedience is a respond to God

wow.really pray + believe that i can really apply!! xD

*plans for tmr
-get my baobei guitar back!!
-sort out my holiday assignments and divide equally
-clear at least a PART of my room
-attend cg404 meeting

-i guess i'm juz unreasonable-

``memories at 10:04 pm


[`enjoying`] your love is beautiful

planning for future.


hmms.juz now had dinner with my dad.mum wasn't home from work yet so we had our dinner first.dad was telling me abt my future and this seminar that he wants me to attend on one of e sat's.it's a 3hr seminar in which they gonna tell me briefly abt e course that they gonna offer.dad says he would pay for e course fee which was a 4-digit no. wow...e course will last for 4 n a 1/2 mth.but i guess he has sort-of made up his mind to send me for e course. and we was talking abt a LOT of stuff...hmms.then now i am thinking abt my future...but i know that God has e best plan for me... =)

-why u so irritated today?!-

``memories at 8:36 pm


[`enjoying`] i feel like i'm falling

there's no way i can ever deny Your grace that You'd showered upon me


ohh God...can You understand how i feel now? ohhs.i'm juz so greatful of ur Love,Grace that You'd showered over me through e past 1 yr.each time i'm far from You,You drew me back again.and each time I made a decision,i don't regret.You always give me e Hope that no one could ever give me.You brought my desire for You back again when You know that i'd been wanting it so badly.God...how can i ever deny abt You?

ahh.am juz so greatful to my Father in Heaven...juz i'd made my decision to start ALL over again to serve Him,He blessed me with a convert! n it's not juz a convert that i'm gonna present to Him! but a retain convert,a child of His that He has placed under my care.to do His work,to read His Word,to understand abt Him and to serve Him! oohs!! i'm juz so happy!! this morning did e 24hr follow-up with sokchin and she was so responsive!! hehex!! normally is i am e one confirm with ppl abt e time that i'm gonna meet them,but this time, she surprised me!! she sms-ed me and ask for e confirmation of e time!! wow...praise God.and she was so well-mannered!! oh my,think i've a LOT of things to learn from her! hehex.am gonna start a new towards treating my sHeePx!! -grins widely- and i'm soOooOoo happy.cuz it is only God's grace that i deserve this sHeePx!! hehex. gonna teach her well and together we'll grow more in Christ!! there's a revival for PHS!! these few days i understand that ppl come and ppl leave.e one who stays is strong and is certain of it's Faith.as i was walking towards centerpoint cold storage yesterday,God told me that i shouldn't cling on to e past.of how many ppl who had came to know Him in PHS.but continue working for Him.although at a period of time we had a GREAT GREAT harvest,not all are retained.so now,not only will there be GREAT harvest in weeks to come,but a caregroup that consist of a bunch of ppl who truly seeks after God,to do His work and to serve Him! and i'm gonna try my best to retain them!! xD

after follow-up went down to douby ghaut with paLx.she went to witness e water baptism which is at east coast while me,meet kai hui for lunch at plaza singapura.hahax.and guess wad? she only woke up at 1pm...gosh...this girLx.had our lunch at long john silver(Jesus longest disciple [-hahax-]) then accompanied her till 2.55pm lidat before she went to work.ahahax.her supervisor was late -______-"" then went home alone.luckily i brought my discman out,else i think i'll be bored on e journey home.met tommy,my classmate when e train stops at amk station.didn't really talked to him.was act. thinking of getting back my guitar from bella...but e saddest thing is that she's NOT at home...-cries- now i missed my guitar so badly whenever i listen to "King of Majesty"!!! -ssccrreamx- oh wells,wasted one week? hmms,gonna get back to life from tmr onwards.nv forget of being a dilligent girLx for Him.so gonna start my holiday assignment real soon!!

-i'm a big big girLx that is living in His worLd!-

``memories at 6:16 pm


[`enjoying`] year 3000

a new beginning


hmms,had only a 6hr 45mins sLp >.< act. not feeling very tired now also.juz that e nitex seems to pass so fast.and whatever i'd done is considered e past already! ahahax~!! act. got woken up by my dear sis.she wanted to get e visor at 9.30am but now it seems like 10am! dunno where's her soul.ahahaxhmms,think i've to go bathe when my dad finish using e bathroom.oohs.and i kissed my dad!! why?cuz today is f@+HeR's d@y!! ahahax~!! he was shocked too cuz he forgotten that today is father's day.ahahax.anyway,my sis juz called and i guess she's on e way to pick up her stuff.hehex.eating my eggs now. ahahax.oohs!! gotto go n get prepare already! hehex~!!

-if i could juz make u disappear-

``memories at 10:02 am


[`enjoying`] these hands

had a fun time chatting with you


hahax.too many things to blog that i don't even know where to start.hmms,let's start from last nitex confirmation! hehex.got wan xian down for service.and she brought wei fen n sokchin down too! praise God! sok chin converted! can see that God really had touched her heart during worship! hmms,had training this morning.quite ok.helped tim to buy majong paper + marker before i went for prayer meet! -sigh- e queue is always THAT long for cold storage.after prayer meet we gathered together for a very short brief then we split into our own grps.went to have a bite at BK then went back to nexus to do e visitor gifts.had a hard time doing it cuz we don't know where to start from.went with eeLee to buy e flower.ahahax.but ended up eating first before buying.had a short-talk with her too :) then it was 4pm and i was like r u s h i n g to pick wan xian and com. up.ahahax.service came.and it was all -thumbs UP!- wow.hopeofgod is really a diff. church! hehex.and of cuz,northeast of cuz supports daniel! hehex! and so co-incidence that i was wearing my sch's PE t-shirt which has daniel's name on it! ahahax~!! when daniel came out to present his song,e WHOLE northeast stood UP and gave him e applause! and piggyx? came out with e banner.ahahax.n we was all cheering on e TOP of our voice! ahahax.then at e end of e song,sihan ran UP e stage to gave daniel a bouquet of flowers.ahahax.priscilla's eyes go O_O ahahax.and i truly believe that most of daniel's guy voted him.oh my!! praise was GREAT! hehex! really dance infront of my Heavenly Father! -grins- and sermon was fab!

*learnt from sermon
-God created me to be myself
-God is e one that shapes my Life
-God is in control of my life and i can trust in Him
-i want joy,strength,wisdom etc that doesn't depends on e circumstances
-cast ALL my anxiety on Him

wow....though it was a short sermon but i'd really learnt a LOT.muz apply!! oohs!! u'll nv know how anxious was i when altar call comes.oh my...my heart was like beating faster than ever.and e nx moment,my heart was gonna POP! out! cuz sokchin responded to God!! and she had made e BEST choice of starting a relationship with Him!! ohhs!! and she's soOooOoo responsive!! yeahx! gonna follow-up her 9hrs later! ahahax.hmms,after service was usual,busy collecting stats,juz that e first half i was act. taking charge of MIS! ahahax!! then after that went to my fren's hse to borrow some stuff.then had a nice chat with my fren too.ahahax. in e end took cab home.oohs.my dad's back home.hmms,time for me to sLp!! hehex~!! oohs.meeting kai hui tmr for lunch! ahahax~!!

-God,thankYou for Your faithfulness-

``memories at 2:18 am

Friday, June 13, 2003
[`enjoying`] jesus is the rock

likes to kiss her on e lips.


You are an introvert!
You are an introvert. You are shy about expressing
your opinions and you probably don't think that
many people know the real you. But your friends
enjoy your company. You are probably very
modest. In fact I'd say your modesty is
probably the reason many people like you. You
probably have insecurities. If you do have
insecurities they are probably misplaced.


What's your personality?
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ahahax~!! am amused manx~!! shi fu...tu mei.ahahax.so funny~!! first time hearing "tu mei" -mUhAhAx- heh...shi fu juz say reagan's name is "reagon" ? .........? try to cheat this statsgirLx ah?! anyway,hahax.i like to kiss babygirLx on her lips.ahahax.so sweet...and budDyz...ahahax.dun jealous abt my blog larr!! hahax~!!

-tu mei...-mUhAhAx- -

``memories at 10:51 pm


[`enjoying`] king of majesty

thanks david and reagan.appreciate a lot =)


hmms.quite a tired day for me.but able to pull it through together with God! geo. lesson ended ard 11.15am.took bus 86 to rix hse.then stayed there alone.was sleeping in e room while rix was busy with his stuff.woke up ard 12+ then went to cook noodles for myself.hahax.felt like i was at my OWN hse lidat.hmms,xT` and soph` reached ard 1.45pm?since then e room became NOISY.hahax.cuz after they arrived,seafood and her girLx slowly arrived.and e room was filled with GIRLX.david and reagan arrived when seafood they all having worship.hahax.when i opened e room door for david and reagan,they gave me a impression that outside was pouring.then was quite funny with only 2 brothers in e room.and all of us was like sitting on e floor,doing our own stuff,while me,fiddling with e air-con controller.hahax.after seafood's worship,we moved to e living room.and david and reagan sitted separately.and class starts,piggyx was david's first student and xiao ting was reagan's first student.hahax.ur should had seen e expression that puay,piggyx and me had.was quite amused.while waiting,was act. quite tired but somehow i can't get to slp.so was act. stoning at how david and reagan was teaching.after bella's turn it was my turn.act. teacher supposed to be reagan but somehow i was dragging here n there,then in e end david became my teacher.but anyway,thanksdavid&reagan for being our teacher! -smiLex- managed to get e strumming of "King of Majesty".and guess what? my fingers are ITCHY now.no,not disease...but ITCHY to strum my guitar.and my guitar is with bella! hehex.she was kind enough to help me bring home.oohs,not long ago was chatting with seafood.and she was saying that she was amused by reagan.e way he button his shirt,his spikey hair.ahahax.was act. amused by seafood rather than reagan.cuz e way she commented juz makes me laugh -laugh out loud- left rix hse ard 5pm.met kai hui at orchard at 5.30pm for some job interview.hahax.saw ee voon when walking at e tunnel there.ooh wells,kai hui is so happy that she can get e job.hahax.her face was filled with joy when she knows that she can work! ahahax~ and she said herself that she gonna treat me when she get her first pay! hahax~!! but she still wants me to work with her.and i was wondering how come i nv work with her also.hmms,thinking of joining her when sch starts,if my timetable allows.but above all,i want to fulfill what i'd said.that is to be a dilligent girLx for Him. -eyes closing soon- -sigh- tmr having training. *ywans* haven't pack my bag for tmr yet...argh.am missing my guitar badly esp. after david had teach me "King Of Majesty"!! now talking to xT`.hahax.-jumps around with joy- am so happy!! hehex.tmr 3 contacts coming!! hahax~!!

-am so amused-

``memories at 9:29 pm


[`enjoying`] typing of e keyboard

tired yet joy


hmms.was very tired this morning that i nearly wanted to skip my geo. lesson.but was thinking,if i can go for guitar lesson why i can't wake up early to go for goe. lesson also? so...here i am,in sch IT rm 1.hehex.teacher juz finished teaching some stuff.*ywanx* after geo. lesson going down to rix's hse straight.quite lazy to go home then come out...so if NO guys at there o'll most prob. maybe sleeping...hehex.quite anxious + scared of later's guitar lesson.hahax.and paLx was asking me to RELAX.ahahax.maybe should learn to reLax at times.hahax.called up kai hui yesterda nitex...so later meeting her at orchard mrt station.she was overjoyed when i called her.ahahax.oh my...my teacher is going to call each of us to go up to e board to answer e question...better get reading e notex now..hahax. *growls* i'm hHhUuUgGgRrRyYy nOW!! *meowx for seafood*

-*meowx*-

``memories at 10:18 am

Thursday, June 12, 2003
[`enjoying`] seasons in the sun

it is always so wonderful after i talked to You.You nv fail to guide me.


hmms.wasn't feeling very gd juz now...then decided to spend time with God.and guess what? everything's in control once again.read His word and He taught me to really honour my parents in every situation.also learnt to take captive of my thoughts,forgive from my heart and be ready to take up His cross and follows Him.wow...am really amazed at how i was before i spent QT and how i was after i'd spent QT.was actually spending QT at my door steps.hmms,nope,i wasn't chase out of e hse but it was rather cooling outside and also wanted to cool myself down.and yes,after QT,i apologized to my mum of my rude attitude =) God really teach me in this area.

-spending time with Him is e most fab thing i could ever say-

``memories at 10:24 pm


[`enjoying`] my best friend

there's a danger in loving somebody too much.


this song is e song that i recognized e most when i attended my very first camp in Hope.sounded juz so fab.hmms,on e way home kept on listening to sun yanzi's song.and it juz feel soOoOo gd.had quite a fun time learning geo. today.was quite amaze at some stuff.like how e water can be drain from river to e sea...how it was connected...lots of stuff.and i'm so excited abt e wireless stuff that they're gonna start nx yr! hehex.and my sister is sleeping on my bed now...ohhs! h@ppy 21st b!r+hd@y!! -hugs u tightly- she'd been a GREAT GREAT sister!! hehex.she is juz so so pretty!! hmms,and yes,today is also wan teng's birthday! so...h@ppy 16th b!r+hd@y!! hehex.u'd been a great sister too! with all e crapx we had during each recess...-hugs- hmms,have to leave hse at ard 2.30pm.having shepherding...3pm @ yishun BK.but quite sleepy now...

-Love e Lord...for He LLoovvEEs us more than ANYONE-

``memories at 1:58 pm


[`enjoying`] classmate's voice

each morning i wake to find You near.


hmms,now in sch...having geo. lesson.hahax.finished doing e thing that ms kang had told me to do while e rest still slowly doing it..hmms,hey sean! hehex.thanks for adding me! ahahax! will visit ur blog everyday! hehex~!! reina so noisy...-glares at reina- hahax.hmms,out of 22 students only 9 turned up for geo. lesson -_____-"" thank God that i wasn't late for sch...hahax.i reached ard 8.55am.then took temperature then reina came already.hmms,babygirLx is soOoOo cute!! hehex! she planted a kiss on my lips this morning juz before i go sch.so sweet of her.hehex.she has grown a LOT.she knows how to listen to instruction hencefore i sort-of teach her NOT to cry when things don't go her way...hehex.hmms,gotto move to e front already...! *zOoM*

-sometimes i juz get too emotional-

``memories at 10:01 am

Wednesday, June 11, 2003
[`enjoying`] my heart your home

a little kiss that she'd planted on my cheeks.


heez.having a baby at home is not bad afterall.with all e small actions that she displayed makes u go smiling all e way.a little kiss from her makes u feel so *wOo*.hmms,juz finished sending a email to my leader.hmms...

-search me through and through-

``memories at 10:44 pm


[`enjoying`] only by grace

For out of the overflow heart the mouth speaks.


hmms,something juz disturbed me when i was spending QT now.think i should talk to my leaders...

*learnt from QT
-learn to lean 100% on God,seek Him and i'll find peace :)
-be conscious of my speaking. "For by your words you will be acquitted,and by your words you will be condemned."

+In the secret in the quiet place
In the stillness You are there
In the secret in the quiet hour I wait Only for You
Cause I want to know You more

I want to know You
I want to hear Your voice
I want to know You more
I want to touch You
I want to see Your face
I want to know You more

I am reaching for the highest goal
That I might receive the prize
Pressing onward pushing every
hinderance aside Outta my way
Cause I want to know You more+

+My Father I adore you more than anything my heart could wish for
I just want you
And Jesus my beloved Saviour everything I have I owe to You
I owe it all to you

And angels come and adore You
And we Your children worship You

You are my world
You are my God
and I lay down my life for You
You are my Lord
the one I love
No one could ever take your place

And angels come and adore You
And we Your children worship You

And everything I have I give to You my Lord the One I live for
I live for You
All my days are gifts from You I pray I’d use them as You want me to
Use them for You+

-Lord,i pray that i'll live in Your worLd everyday-

``memories at 10:32 pm


[`enjoying`] i feel like i'm falling

why do girLx go crazy over guys.


hmms,a bit tired now.this song is nice!! hehex.hmms,had matthew's cg today.praise God for 5 non-believers who turned up in e very last min! hehex.it runs quite smoothly.offered bee hoon to north d ppl.act. it was only daryl who ate it.ahahax.juz as i finished writing his name,he entered e hse.so i juz passed him e plate of bee hoon and he was quite shocked.ahahax.after cg had evaluation.after that had a drink with paLx at e rix's house downstair and we was happily chatting.supposingly to go junction 8 with paLx and ee voon.but after paLx called her dad,she decided to go home.so we didn't go.ahahax.when going down e escalator at yishun mrt station,some thoughts strike me to really be a dilligent girLx for Him.so i guess i shall not waste my time anymore.means to really do my holiday assignment.hehex. -sigh- now quite tired already...haven't even spend QT yet.think i better spend NOW before babygirLx comes and disturb.wells,have to go sch tmr for geo's lesson.

-are ur too obsessed?-

``memories at 9:12 pm


[`enjoying`] let me die

you've made him lose all his confidence in teaching


-grins- specially wake up early this morning to have my breakfast!! hehex.fried bee hoon by my dear mummy!! and she really cooked a nice one.slept at 1.20am yesterday...and woke up at 8.30am lidat...dun wish to comment anything.hmms,david came up with this guitar plan for e 5 of us...juz now replied e email already. dunno how e rest think abt e plan...

hmms,now is 10.02am already.think i've to get myself prepare and go to rix hse already.

-nice knowing u-

``memories at 10:06 am

Tuesday, June 10, 2003
[`enjoying`] graduation

felt so loved as i read through e times we got together.


*lost at words* -smiLex- felt so...*LLoovvEE* as i read through my diary-x private entries.hmms,indeed i'm someone who is easily touched.nearly cried when i read e entries or rather want someone to -hug- me :)

had a short chat with my shepherd juz now.before that we spending QT.had a fruitful time reading e WOG.
*learnt from QT
-in whatever i do,it is do UNTO God,not for men to see but it's ALL for God
-learn to forgive others,treat others how i want to be treated,do not judge and do not worry for tmr
-be WORD-CENTERED!
-stand firm in Him in EVERY circumstances
-be a worker for Him,aLone

*ywanx* quite tired today...dunno why.
-looks at my hp- am i supposed to be expecting some things? -shrugs- i shouldn't...*rubs eyes*

+Night and day, I seek your face
Long for you, in the secret place
All I want, in this life
Is to truly know you more

As the waters cover the sea
So your love, covers me
Guiding me on, roads unknown
I trust in you alone, I trust in you alone

My saving grace, My endless love,
Deeper and deeper, I'm falling in love, with you
My one desire, My only truth,
Deeper and deeper, I'm falling in love, with you

And I will rise on wings of eagles
Soaring high above all my fears
I rest in your open arms of love+

-hug me tightly-

``memories at 10:42 pm


[`enjoying`] keep the candle burning

why does it looks so bad?


-sigh- my hair juz looked so bad when i'm at home >.< my hair juz sway from one side to another! -grr- dun understand why! hmms,but how does my hair looks like? did it shows that it has been trim?hmms,went ard asking if i could link them. ahahax.now my "link list" is flowing...ahahax.hmms,thanksian for sending me songs that i can't find it! -cheers-

oohs! thanksmummy!! she helping me to fry bee hoon for tmr's matthew's cg! hehex! n dun forget that her cooking is -thumbs UP!- oohs.juz came back from dinner *yums* ate porridge again! hehex! it's nice...argh.my hair juz -grr!- hmms.e porridge soOooOoo nice!! now still eating...hahax!

-thumbs UP to my mum's food!-

``memories at 7:26 pm

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